Today has been strange. Beyond strange, actually. I headed to the hospital this morning before work to get a minor lesion looked at, followed by heading off to work. I didn’t have time to ride, and it will likely be close to dark by the time I get home. I’m also dealing with a major upset in my life at the moment (of which I won’t go into detail here).
I threw my little nub of Hat-Heel Sock into my work bag this morning, and I’m so glad that I did. As I sat knitting on my break, I realized that knitting grounds me. It puts things into perspective.
I recall knitting when I was in grade 9, beside my grandmother’s bedside as she was in her last days. It was an incredibly difficult time period for my family, but the knitting was calming. It also provided something for my grandmother to latch onto. She had severe dementia, and she didn’t remember much in her last days. She had always been a knitter though, and she loved to hold the knitted fabric.
So today, as I sat on my break, completely overwhelmed by the events that have happened in the last 24 hours, I pulled out my knitting and began to work. My breathing slowed, and I was able to put everything into perspective. Usually, I think of riding as my escape. It takes me far away from my troubles; I have to focus so much that I can’t be distracted by other things. It all comes rushing back when I jump off though.
Knitting, on the other hand, helps me to focus. It allows me to think, while simultaneously making one stitch after another. I immediately gain a more positive outlook; if I can knit one stitch, over and over, and create something, then I can keep going past whatever it is that’s bothering me.
Don’t get me wrong. There are times when I’m knitting and I get so mad that I have to put the needles down or else I’m liable to poke someone’s eye out. There’s also times when I just knit because I feel like it; it doesn’t impact my overall mood.
But today, I needed my knitting. I still need my knitting, and I know now that when it comes to insurmountable obstacles, or big decisions that I need to think about, I just need to grab some knitting and make some stitches. Then my thoughts will go straight.